"Sonny, it's Josef Soltini. I don't know about you, but I feel it's time we caught up with each other. Let me know when and where works best for you, and I'll make it happen."
[Journal entry written back to her ;;, because he had to say something even if he feels terrible about that night and what he did. So much of what she said, it ended up being very true, whether she meant them at the time or not.
It hit close to home likely because she does understand him better than most people, which is why it takes a little alcohol, a lot of jumping over his own issues, and a day or so before he can formulate this entry on the journal network.]
Helen,
You've got nothing to apologize for. You said yourself that you were not yourself, and I knew that that day. I made poor fucking choices. I don't blame you for what was said. There was truth there, and I didn't respond well and that'snot fucking okay. There's nothing to forgive, Helen, but you're forgiven.
I'm the I'm actually the one who needs to
[jrkl;ealrkja WORDS. Sonny is 80+ years old. He can really manage words without emotions getting in the way, no seriously. Watch him. It's going to happen. Soon, but this is the hardest part because he did to her what he swore he wouldn't do to someone he cared about again, and he can't get the guilt out of his head.]
I'm so fucking sorry for my part in that day. I asked around to make sure as fuck you were okay, but I didn't think you'd want to see me after what happened.
I made a promise to you, Helen, that it'd end, and I had to see it through. I'm just glad this was a promise I didn't have to break, and I'm more fucking relived that you're okay.
Are you okay?
You're always welcome at the Crowbar, Helen. I promise you that's not something that's ever going to change. Feel free to stop by any time or I can visit you. I did want to see you were all in one piece again. [He just doesn't have a whole lot of trust for himself right now.]
sarah, any time. i mean it. i know how hard that must have been for you given... you have never wanted my help before for good reason, but there's nowhere else i would have gone. nowhere else i would be but there if you ever needed me. that man is not going to hurt you or noah or rafe again. i promise you that.
[ ugh he's not wrong. asking for sonny's help was hard, and took a lot of swallowing her pride, but it was noah. she couldn't ever let anything happen to noah. and for all her pride, god, she'd be lying if she said she wasn't relieved that man was no longer a problem. ] he wasn't looking for trouble. he was just protecting me and rafe was protecting him. [ just. for the record. this is not a common incidence. ]
[sonny pauses as he reads what she sends, and he took one look at the man and could only imagine the things he must have said, must have said about sarah, because there is no way someone gets that angry unless it's protecting someone they love]
i didn't think he was. spend a few minutes with that man, you can see how easily someone would want to beat the utter fucking hell out of him. you really worked for him?
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A letter will arrive at the bar, addressed the Sonny.]
:'(
It hit close to home likely because she does understand him better than most people, which is why it takes a little alcohol, a lot of jumping over his own issues, and a day or so before he can formulate this entry on the journal network.]
Helen,
You've got nothing to apologize for. You said yourself that you were not yourself, and I knew that that day. I made poor
fuckingchoices. I don't blame you for what was said. There was truth there, and I didn't respond well and that'snot fucking okay. There's nothing to forgive, Helen, but you're forgiven.I'm theI'm actually the one who needs to[jrkl;ealrkja WORDS. Sonny is 80+ years old. He can really manage words without emotions getting in the way, no seriously. Watch him. It's going to happen. Soon, but this is the hardest part because he did to her what he swore he wouldn't do to someone he cared about again, and he can't get the guilt out of his head.]
I'm so fucking sorry for my part in that day. I asked around to make sure as fuck you were okay, but I didn't think you'd want to see me after what happened.
I made a promise to you, Helen, that it'd end, and I had to see it through. I'm just glad this was a promise I didn't have to break, and I'm more fucking relived that you're okay.
Are you okay?
You're always welcome at the Crowbar, Helen. I promise you that's not something that's ever going to change. Feel free to stop by any time or I can visit you. I did want to see you were all in one piece again. [He just doesn't have a whole lot of trust for himself right now.]
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I've kept my resolution and spent the whole day doing absolutely nothing work related. Care to help me continue into the evening?
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i think i can more than do that. where do you want me to meet you? i'll be there.
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i didn't think he was. spend a few minutes with that man, you can see how easily someone would want to beat the utter fucking hell out of him. you really worked for him?
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